the energy here is low

i've started three posts and finished zero, so i thought i'd jumble all my unfinished thoughts into this random post ::

• there are some distractions plaguing me right now, and i'm about to throw myself off the nearest ledge.
  
• i made some headway with a client prospect, and i'm hoping... praying something happens at our meeting in two weeks.
• there is a store closing down in my little town square, and all i can picture in it's place is the boutique i still dream about opening. oh money, where art thou? one day, friends.
  
• this whole "starting over" with the blog is much harder than i thought.
  
• i'm bloated and blame last night's decision to have mexican.
• it's 3:40, and it seems i've stopped working for the day - thank you, said distractions.
• my car came with a pretty awesome amp, and yes, i'm thinking about adding a speaker with a box to pump up the jam.
• i'm almost 29, and will be riding around town pumping up the jam. ridiculous? yes.
• today i debated walking out of my office claiming personal reasons and driving straight to the beach. i'd hit up target for necessities.
• running from shit is my first reaction - it's scary, but i've been told it's normal.
• i abandoned my therapist because she started delving into childhood. i have one hour. let's get to the pertinent stuff, please.
• why do the models at urban outfitters look like they need to be somewhere on suicide watch? slouchy, pouty, rail thin child-like creatures do not sell clothing.
• seriously craving an episode of trueblood. i feel like a 4th of july episode would have been fab!
• is lindsay lohan really going to have to spend 90 days in jail? more like 90 minutes.
• i feel bad for her and her daddy situation. he doesn't need to be talking smack - he doesn't know her anymore.
• i miss my subscription to us weekly and am seriously behind on all the award show fashion picks. i want to see some gowns!
• i did score a sweet deal on two years of glamour mag for 15 beans - that should be arriving any day now.
• i scored some laura mercier junk on gilt a few weeks ago, and it finally shipped. joy on this rotten day!
• spin will happen tomorrow. will report back knee sock's choice of undergarment.
• i just got all caught up on cupcakes and cashmere, and want to throw myself off another ledge. really? how can someone be so cute, have so many awesome pairs of designer shoes, and get to design a coach bag? (p.s. i spend too much money on wine or i need her job. also, i want that bag.)